3:45 pm was the briefing.
I still remember this place was the venue I took my Ippt 20 over years ago. Nothing has been change. I ran round the running track, I saw chin up bars and went to cook house too. Above this my mind keep thinking of my wife as she wanted to leave me. I am very very depressed. She has not been talking to me like the way we use to communicate 5 months ago which was March 2023. I regret for neglecting her due to mu taxi driving. And because of this, it triggers her to flash back all unhappy incidents which I have caused up to 20 years ago ie 2003 which was the year we did our ROM.
Whenever I am not busy, I think of this issue and then I got depressed and feel like very hopeless because I don't have much friends to talk to. I also refused to tell my mum. My mum also old already. I also worried about my mum too.
I don't know how long I can endure this. I worry about my wife leaving me and if we really not together, I will miss my two daughter. Beside I also worry about my mum and also now I am trying out my new career which I think my wife don't really like it. She worry that my low income cannot provide or rather not sufficient for the monthly expenses.
Hence to sum up, my wife wanted to leave me is because
1. I have hurt her more than enough.
2. I don't have a job.
Even now I start to apply, I don't think I can do well in my interviews.
Sometime I feel if I die, maybe I feel is better because there isn't any way out but I worry about my mum scare when she reach 80 plus no one care for her.
This year my life is the most difficult.
